Fjarilen I Peace

How do we know when we dream or when it´s real?

I mean spending time with some people feels like a dream, how can I think that it really does happend? Take this weekend for example, spend 3 amazing days with my boyfriend and today I saw him again.. Tomorrow we will be hanging out a few more hours and then I´ll be hitting the buss on wensday to go home.. But how can I know that this all really happends? It still feels like i will be waking up soon and it will all be just another day dream...

When dreams become a part of your day then maybe it makes you confused. My life is for sure confusing, maybe too much sometimes and maybe too little at other times... It all makes sence if your tired, believe me;) Need to sleep so bad now and no sleeping morning tomorrow cause my brother and his girl (I live with them for a few days) will be getting up at about 7-ish... SO snore!=P

I went shopping today; 2 shoes, 1 jacket, pantihoes, a "dress" and some more small stuff..=)

Well can´t write more cause my eyes are shutting down...

Love life and live fully!

"I am only this way because of what you have made me, but I aint gonna break...." (Pink)

It´s so true, never let yourself down unless you have decided it´s for your own good.. It can never be for your own good, so what I´m really saying is NEVER let yourself down..=)

When people tell you what way to go, or what direction to chose, then we can get very confused. But never go against your own instinct... If your guts tells you no, why decide yes? If you wanna turn left but they say right, why do you have to lisen to them? Go your own way, make your own descions, lay down your own set of rules and play the ball in the goal when you think the time is right. Nobody can tell you wrong if you know your right..=)

I was wondering the other day, what makes us who we are; The way we look? The way we act? The way we smell? Or simply all of those things put togheter? If I take away the Moa act, or the Moa-smell or even the Moa-look.. Then who would I be?

Life is full of weird things, maybe my blogg is one of them or maybe it is the only thing in this world making sence? Who am I to tell you what to think, or who are you to judge my blogg based on only the lyrics in my writing? What is said between the lines is what creats what should be created.. Maybe it´s not supposed to make sence or maybe it got lost in the translation? 

Questions leads to questions, who leads to other question who might lead to answer... How can we ever know? 

It´s strange how we live in this world. We live day by day, hour by hour and often we are missing a vital part of ourselves. We miss loved once; friends, family, boy-/girlfriends, animals or even ourselves. We change into a world full of love and hate. We become who we are and we learn to live a peaceful life. Read magazines, watch tv and fallowing news are just a part of the New world. Have to see the love and the dreams and just live after them. Never give up on ourselves, and do believe in others. If I can do it, why can´t you? Why can you do it if I can´t? =)

I meet the boy of my dreams last weekend and now I wonder how I could deserve him? I mean, he is a fairytale come true and what am I? A nightmare? No, I know what I am, I´m amazing and I´m glad somebody finally could see that!=) Not shallow but I know who I am!=)

Live, Love and Peacefulness!

Don´t need to ask anything upon a falling star, I´ve got somebody to chase the pain away...

So, life is great! I have everything I could ask for, a few more weeks to Spain, a few more days with Crille and still 2 paychecks rolling in!=) Life can´t always be what we want it to be BUT we can make it work. It will be hard going away from somebody like C, but I know if it is meant to be we could make it work. We will have Skype, Web cam, MSN and we will see each other at Christmas.. We are still just new for each other so maybe the Spain thing will destroy some stuff, but still I can´t stay home and he tells me he understands (let´s just hope he really does).=)  From what I´ve seen, he is amazing! I never had a boy in my life who told me he would wait for me, who has had that?=) So I´m more than (sorry for the expression) blessed with what we have.=)

Hm... I wont be one of those anoying girls who talks about their boy 24/7, I promise! Well other stuff that is new in life? Hm... working my last week next week and have a working weekend now, next one I´ll be going to the northen parts of Sweden and hopefully see the new Swedish movie "Sommar med Göran".=) Looks funny!=)

Cleaned my room yesterday; 2 big garbage bags, 2 recycle bags and 2 that went up on our first floor (yeah we have 3, sounds quite big but it´s just a normal house in Sweden=))... Now I´m chilling before hell breaks lose, and that is work.. I´m hoping that one thing wont happend there today but wont know untill I know..=P

Well should pack my lunch and dinner bag and get ready.. Start at 12 and end at 21:00 (9pm)...

Live and love life!



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The song, "I´ve said sorry to many times" is a good reflexion on my life, I guess? Except I very rarly get a sorry, more a your childish for taking that the wrong way... I´m not a old boring woman, but so not a child anymore! It upsets me to think about all the crazy shit we are putting ourselves through... If somebody makes a mistake, why not just say; I´m sorry and be done with it. The book I just raid had something so good written in it; "I promise I won´t hurt your mother on purpose, but sometimes I do say things she might get up-set about. But you should know I would never hurt her on purpose." It is true, I loved those sentences...=)

So far this summer I´ve read a few books; 3 from Norah Roberts (a serie if books called the emeralds of Bianca. The shoppaholic and a few more..=) I´ll recomend all of them, just kinda read one crappy one. It was called Brazilia and NO way I could finish it... So bad!

Just been doing a few things lately, working mostly,,,  I´m not too sick of everything, I guess I´ve been mostly sick of who I am or what I became lately... Like, I don´t know... Sometimes we just feel trapped in a pathern that we don´t feel to comfy about.. Which leads us to complain and wish we where someplace else but we´re not....

Live life to the extream, never look back and love every min of it!

Peace, Love and Happiness...