Fjarilen I Peace

Sometimes I have had a lot of negative thoughts. I have wondered if life was worth living.

That is what I thought before I knew that life could give me so much pleasure. I mean I´m might be away from the people I love the most but knowing I have them give me an incredible feeling. I can say; I give love and I´m loved, not just by one person but by a lot of people. Sometimes when we are down we focus on the bad things in life instead of seeing the good things. Every day it breaks my heart being away from the person I love the most, but every day I have the chance to think of him, appreciate him, love him and wanting to be close to him. How many people are living on their own? How many people would kill to get what we have?  To share what we share and to be what we are?

I don´t think I´m entitled to complain. I´m one of the luckiest girls in the world, I have a boy to love and to be loved by. I have friends I will never leave and who won’t ever leave me. I have a dream, I have an apartment and I have the freedom of being me. The me that I know I love, and that I´m proud over.

Just like Josh Rouse sings “Nothing gives me pleasure like you do”. Baby never stop being yourself, that´s the person I love and the person I can´t live without. I know I´ve said this a million times before But

I love you. You´ll be in my heart now and forever. And nothing gives me pleasure like you do..

Thank you for giving me a reason to smile...




"Your Guardian Angel"

When I see your smile
Tears roll down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay woah, stay woah

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It´s not that I´ve forgot about this blog, it´s more that I really have no time to write this year. Don´t ask me why and don´t worry about me deleting anything of what I´ve been writing. This blog has help me feel better time and time again! It´s thanks to this one I stand stronger and with more will to live a life I deserve.

I´ve been feeling so good lately that all this time I use to use my blog to make me feel good is not needed. I talk to my boyfriend almost every day and he helps me with surviving all those days it feels like I wanna die. You are lying to yourself if you would say you never feel like everything is fucked up and you don´t have the strength to carry one… But if you are strong enough then you make something good about all of these bad days... Instead of seeing rain as grey, see it as a way for the grass to become green and the earth to keep living… Everything can´t be perfect and filled with joy, but it´s the way of thinking that makes us survive in life…

I´ve gotten a life to be proud over, a boyfriend to love and a personality to start appreciating! I´m working on the last thing and one day I will look myself in the mirror and say I´m a beautiful girl both on the inside and the outside… Nobody can stop me!

I will quote Queens;

“Don´t stop me now… Cause I´m having a good time…”

Thanks for listening!

Live, love and enjoy everyday!